Date: 20/07/2026
Mood: addicted to screens
internet life
Real life is so... slow, and so... quiet; it takes me about 3 hours to finish a complex drawing, but the video of my process is only around a minute long, I think. Too much time online can mess with a person's perception of time.
I think that explains the difficulty people—myself included—have staying focused without a secondary stimulus: the brain perceives the task as taking longer than it actually should. But that’s just my theory.
Date: 01/07/2026
Mood: ????
thinking about life.
Today I came to the conclusion that I need to stop centering my life around problems... my mind is becoming more and more unsettled—because of my relationship with my body, my routine, my hobbies, my desires... with everything... because of my relationship with perfection.
I’m addicted to seeking perfection, to the point where I no longer find pleasure in anything and feel anxiety about everything... It’s as if I’ll never be enough... a good enough friend, loved enough, beautiful enough, smart enough... even with my disabilities, I’m not disabled enough... never perfect enough... does anyone else feel this way?
Date: 05/25/2026
Mood: calm
thinking about life.
I’m working on a media.log file for the website (｡•́︿•̀｡); unfortunately, I’m not yet skilled enough to type one from scratch (；ω；), so I’m using another template (｡•́‿•̀｡)✨, but this is messing up the site's aesthetics (╥﹏╥)💔
Aside from that, I'm managing my college work (｡•́‿•̀｡)📚✨… Can you believe I’m going to have to bring an avocado pit to sculpture class? 🥑(⊙_⊙)
Date: 05/22/2026
Mood: happy
Today is the first official blog entry... I'm proud to see the site taking shape.
I'm still going to edit it a lot... but I'm very happy....
Aside from that, today was a productive day at work... not so much at home... but the important thing is that everything is up to date. I'm going to work on topics for blog posts, maybe reviews... but from a more personal perspective, the official reviews will be in another part of the site... thinking about it, I'll need to make a site map... but for now I have enough.